He made it very clear to me (once again) that I'm not called to be someone else. This is something I've struggled with for many years. I find myself envious of how God is using other people. He has to remind me that I have been created for certain purposes in His plan and that it takes all of us working in different ways. My calling isn't any less important than someone else's. This means that sometimes I am called to what seem to be pretty mundane things. At this point in my life it's been made very clear that I am called to be the best Christian wife and mother I can be to my family. My role in God's plan is to raise my children to know and serve Him.
I also know that if God's calling to something larger isn't obvious, then it might be that he's telling me to wait. I don't like waiting, but it has become a little easier over these last several months through this study. I truly believe that God will call me to something else at some point in my life, but I don't know what or when that will be. I do know that while waiting, I have to be open to the opportunities God puts in front of me and willing to act. Recently, I struggled all the way to school one day about a particular co-worker and her personal walk with the Lord. I had no idea how to start a conversation with her, but I knew I had to. Immediately Satan began to interfere - I couldn't find her before school started and when I did she was in the middle of something else with another teacher. I didn't take "NO" for an answer and told her that I would be waiting in her room for her. The conversation went well and she appeared to be very open to what I had to say. She told me that she felt like God had been pulling her back toward Him. I don't know if I'll see this come to fruition, but know that I am continuing to pray for her and encourage her. Even though I felt like I was in a period of waiting, I feel like being available to God's daily callings is just as important as embarking on some life changing experience.
I also know that if God's calling to something larger isn't obvious, then it might be that he's telling me to wait. I don't like waiting, but it has become a little easier over these last several months through this study. I truly believe that God will call me to something else at some point in my life, but I don't know what or when that will be. I do know that while waiting, I have to be open to the opportunities God puts in front of me and willing to act. Recently, I struggled all the way to school one day about a particular co-worker and her personal walk with the Lord. I had no idea how to start a conversation with her, but I knew I had to. Immediately Satan began to interfere - I couldn't find her before school started and when I did she was in the middle of something else with another teacher. I didn't take "NO" for an answer and told her that I would be waiting in her room for her. The conversation went well and she appeared to be very open to what I had to say. She told me that she felt like God had been pulling her back toward Him. I don't know if I'll see this come to fruition, but know that I am continuing to pray for her and encourage her. Even though I felt like I was in a period of waiting, I feel like being available to God's daily callings is just as important as embarking on some life changing experience.
At this point, I'm not sure if any of this makes sense when put in writing, but it makes sense in my head and heart. Even though not many participated by posting or commenting, I know this study was what God wanted for me and I hope for at least one more.
