I've meant to say that I blog for myself, not for others. I don't find my posts funny or overly enlightening. What they are are the honest words from my heart. With that being said, I'm going to start by being honest with all of you. I've struggled with this lesson this week.
1. I first struggled with initially understanding why Abel's sacrifice was seen as "commendable," while Cain's was not. I don't think it became clear to me until I listened to the lecture.
2. I have had a horrendous week. I've become bogged down in negativity. I could feel myself withdrawing from God or at least not actively seeking Him out. I was reveling in misery. This was a very clear picture of my lack of faith.
I did spend the week contemplating the question that asked about being intimate with God and thought it was a pretty simple answer for me. It was about spending time with God and getting to know Him.
After prayer this week and listening to the lecture, it's so much more. I think intimacy is not possible with out faith. But I also think faith is going to be difficult without an intimate relationship. How can you faith someone without knowing them and fellowshiping with them?
Yes I used faith as a verb. Faith is just that. It is an action. And it's an action by choice.
My choice today is to faith God. To do this, I have to intentionally seek Him out everyday and trust that my future is secure in Him, despite whatever difficulties I might face on earth.
I know this wasn't long, and I might not have even been real articulate, but it's very clear to me what I have to do first. Feel free to hold me accountable and I asked me if I sought after God on any particular day. I'm sure going to try.
Every single time I begin a Bible study, especially when I'm leading it, this same thing happens to me. I'm convinced that Satan is intimidated and "mad as a wet hen" (spoken like our Arkansas family would say it, huh?!) when we begin to walk in our calling . In fact, I too have had that kind of week. Persevere Amber! If we wait to "have time" for His word, as moms we never will! I'm so glad the speaker pointed out that each one of the heroes in the Hebrews 11 "Hall of Faith" was a sinner! I'm so glad that God is the ultimate example of grace and mercy, never holding a grudge when I'm a pain in the neck!
ReplyDeleteI'm also always reminded, when I read this story and don't completely understand it,that God graciously provided THE SACRIFICE for my sin. If I'd had to live under that old system of offering appropriate sacrifices over and over, I would blow it as badly as Cain I'm sure!